Introduction – Let's Head Off
I knew I had to desensitize myself if I was to succeed, and so I began the
gradual process of rewiring my nervous system a good week in advance
of my first day on the opiate-receptor project. Each day I forced myself a
little closer to the door of the room where they did the killing. After a few
days, I was able to stand in the doorway and watch as the animals where
decapitated, a procedure done with a slick little guillotine, allowing the
brain to be quickly scooped out and immersed in a cold liquid buffer that
kept the neurons alive and nourished while freezing the internal chemistry.
Soon, I was able to stand right next to the bench and watch.
Then I killed one myself…(1)